I'm having a hard time returning to the real world after our vacation so I've been trying to figure out what the heck. And then, the other night, another sleepless night, it dawned on me. And now, allow me to bore you with my theories.
The first year out of college was amazing. I moved out on my own and with a cute boy, I had a stable job, and there was no more homework! I was in heaven. We worked all day and went out at night. We cooked our first meals and stayed up on weekends. We traveled to distant cities or remote towns for work, went out to dinners on the company bill and tried various foods.
By the end of the first year things started to get a bit stale. Traveling seemed to take over my life, I was working overtime, and the places we went out seemed to have all these college kids running around, and, well, we were old!
I spent endless nights trying to figure out why I was so unhappy all of a sudden and then I got it! It was our first summer without a summer vacation. We spent the past 16 years going through life working our tails off for 9 months and then partying for 3. In high school and college most of us worked during the summer, but it was a break from the usual routine and so we never minded. This summer was the first one without a change in the routine.
After we figured that out and all agreed that it sucked, we decided to move with our lives. And we did.
So our 5th summer is approaching and I can't figure out what's going on. I am used to working through the summers now, although I still hate seeing the sun out my window and knowing I can't participate. But, like I said, I got it. It's the first time that there's no graduation!
We went to High School for 4 years, graduated, celebrated and then moved on to greener pastures - college. It was going to be the first time we wouldn't have to get up at 6am, we get to choose classes we want to take, and got to live in dorms!
College lasted 4 years for me and after 4 years we graduated. We celebrated and moved out. We got real jobs and lived on our own.
Queue this year. This is the first year with no graduation or huge changes. We worked our tails off, with no summer vacations! And after 4 years, there is no graduation! There is no big ceremony to celebrate our achievement. There is no big party. There is no huge change forcing us to take a leap of faith and the next step.
Don't get me wrong, we are progressing in our careers, we got married, we bought a house. But after 4 years, it's still the same real world. What's next? Where's my next green pasture? Where's my celebration?
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